this year i let myself get hurt. twice. and i’m sick of that and i’m not about to let it happen again so i don’t care if this is self-centred; before anything else i will do what it takes to protect myself. even if it means curbing all feelings towards your words and actions even if it means disappointing you. at this time i choose to have only my own interest at heart. to be the selfish fuck the way that seems to satisfy those who have left me to do so. i’m done with this sickening ache, over and over. it hurts more than i ever fucking deserved.

just a heads-up. there is nothing for you here. because no way am i leaving my heart on the line anymore. you can leave if you want.